Fail again

I started to feel I don't want to share anything about my project paper with any of my friends because they simply can't help me.

For the past three weeks, I have been thinking that I'm doing good....I just need to go distribute the questionnaires today, present my seminar tomorrow, then start editing my Chapter 2 this week...then perhaps next week I can finish collecting the data and start doing Chapter 4&5 by end of March.

Everything is not good now...because I was turned down again by the teacher today...for the third time. Deadline is drawing near....and I don't know where else can I go...schools are having break next week....

Cried just now and asked Mr Lee why would I take this project paper? I would have scored very well even if I only study a little. I'm not bluffing....friends know me well....2 hours of study and I can get the second highest or even the highest in class....what for?? why choose this?

I said I wanted to learn, that's why I chose project paper....I thought it was simpler....at this moment I still think it's not a very complicated thing....but I don't understand why I fail to nail it.

Maybe it's a reflection of my attitude problem. Maybe I should try harder to put myself together and just do it.  That's the most difficult part I guess.